Regret, there's a lot of blame in your post. Similar to when you had EAs. You have to take responsibility for YOUR actions. He didn't make you do anything....you chose.
One of the things that stuck with me in your post is your H's comment about "you're angry over nothing." Maybe that is a bit strong, but it makes me think "don't sweat the small stuff." Do you think you are doing that?
Some of this sounds like you are looking for reasons to fight. Are you?
Are you still working on becoming the W only a fool would leave?
