I will string some days together where everything is good, then wham, I'll string some real sh**tty ones together.
Hang in there, I think we all go through that. It's been a year since BD for me and I still have bad days now and then. But as time goes on the good days increase and the bad days decrease.
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After almost 4-5 months of this so far, it gets lonely. I'm sure you long timers scoff at this as you have amazingly weathered much longer. Sometimes I dont know how you do it.
GAL and connecting with old friends and making new ones is the best way to combat the loneliness. It doesn't completely get rid of it, but it helps. Also try to remember the you that you were before you got married. Chances are that you had a lot of alone time back then, but you probably weren't lonely, right? It's because you weren't codependent, you were independent and self-sufficient. Try and get back in touch with that guy.
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The W and I have had a number of good fights as of late, as the pressure of our living situation gets to us. Sometimes I lack the ability to walk away when she decides to question or confront.
You might consider seeing an IC for this, they can give you tools to defuse the sitch before it flames up. It's REALLY important to stop the fighting, that's a huge 180 in M's where fighting is a constant problem.
Be patient with yourself as well as your W, give yourself time to heal! You're doing fine so far
