Hi stung, My heart goes out to you....sending big hugs. I am going through a lot of the same feelings, but you have been able to express them in a truly descriptive manner. Have you been journaling? I find it helps me get the emotions out so I dont hold them in. It is a challenge, but i recomend trying to step back from your emotions. Feel them and aknowledge them. Just do it as an observer it will give you a better understanding of them. I do have one more peice of advice. If the SD contacts you don't ignore it. It isn'r her fault these things are happening. She is still a child who needs you. just my 2c. keep your head up. we are all with you
