Dropping the Rope

[littleGTO]

Interesting conversation w H today.

First of all H was very depressed and lonely while boys & I were on vacation. (H is still not seeing OW...really not sure why).

He said he had a lot of time to think and he realized that there aren't a lot of people in the world who really care about him and 4 of them were on vaca (me & our 3 boys).

He reiterated how much he does care about me and that he wants to have a good R with me moving forward. (Co-parenting implied.)

But then he said "who knows what will happen moving forward." WTF? We are seeing a second mediator next week, so it seems that the direction is pretty clear to me!

When I told H that his grandmother sent me a b-day card and in it said that she was sorry to hear that things weren't going well and she hoped that we could all be happy.

He said he was upset that she knew and that "anything could happen moving forward." AGAIN, that statement! I really was sort of annoyed that he said that. Why is he trying to throw a small amount of confusion back in my face?

I am NOT confused. I am ready to move forward. I am NOT a default for him in case things w OW are not working out. And, I am sorry that things are not going the way he planned, but really I'm not.

But, I am done. Period. I am already fantasizing about my new happy life! arrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhh!