I'm getting it. I really am. I feel like I'm on solid ground. Time is on my side. I'm working on me. Making friends. Dressing better. Going out. Enrolling in school this week. Focusing on my future. And not letting him control my emotions anymore.
He called today. He asked if I still think we can fix this. And said that just because he always says he wants it to be over and acts like he wants it to be over...he isn't really ready for it to be over. Confused, much?
And I'm OK with that confusion. A month ago I probably would have cried or screamed or gone crazy. But now? I'm living by the wise words of my divorce support group leader...
Work on yourself. The couples that are really meant to be together will end up together. They won't be able to stay apart no matter how hard they try.
Sure I still hope that's us but I no longer feel like I'm waiting for it to happen...just moving forward with my life and accepting that now is not the time for us.
(And I told him yes, I do still think we can fix it)
And I'm OK with that confusion. A month ago I probably would have cried or screamed or gone crazy. But now? I'm living by the wise words of my divorce support group leader...
