Harder and Harder..............II

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I AM SUCH A DOORMAT, SUCKER, HIGH ROAD TAKING, GUILT-FILLED CHUMP

So after my Friday session with W I planned to start work on the pool and the window boxes, that my W so identified as hot button issues, on Sunday.

These were the obvious reasons-in her mind- why the house was not sold. Since somehow it was assumed I would do it the house being still not sold.......is my fault.

I remained at the house so that D3 would have consistency. Its "home" to her. However since im at the house Im also responsible for all property management. WHICH I HATE!

Give me a condo or a townhome or a small home- unlike my large home built in 1832 and sitting on 7 acres of land. I want to use my time off to live life- not mulch, mow, weed and paint

So my best friend suggests that if she comes back in October that I move out- Let her own the responsibilities. After all, she made this mess.

But I cant. In my mind whatever happens to w also happens to D3. WHY CANT I SAY "NO"? Why cant I do whats good for ME instead of feeling the need to make sure everyone else is happy? Why am I OK to settle with being taken for granted, lied too, ripped off and then BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING?????

I know- just a typical LBH venting.....but im getting stronger and when you do good- good things happen.

At least my eyes are opening!