Harder and Harder..............II

[littleGTO]

PS,
Sounds like you made some positive progress regarding house situation--a list and some due dates is a good idea.

And, good for you for knowing and establishing boundaries regarding your W and OM. You do NOT deserve to be put through the same pain over by living w your W again while OM is in the picture.

Boston again, yeah.

[Positivespin]

Today is Saturday , wearing Sundays clothing,,,,,,,

W wants to take d3 to a concert tomorrow- on my Sunday. So I had to improvise and overcome. We rode to the bakery and back but then I decided to play superhero and use my bike, and my backpack, to do all of my chores I would normally do by car. I strapped d3 on the back and off we went.

My hammies are still trashed from my ridiculous weed rampage on wed. Did that stop me- oh he'll no, I'm to dumb to let sense stop me.

So I've got me plus my backpack filled with 11 library books and d3 s 40 lbs over my rear tire cruising on a mountain bike......uphill. Yes, there was pain. Yes, there was some cursing in a motivational style. And the hills kept going up.....

Now I should mention that slashing the paving budget by 50% the last 3 years may not have been a great idea.

So we went to the library to get d3s prize for completing the summer reading program - a book and minor league baseball tix.

Then we rode up more hills to the playground.....then had a picnic by the river.

Went back home - uphill- for nap time. While d3 was sleeping I decided to order the baseball tickets.

Tonight was the only game we could go too.

So we hop in the car and attend a game with a 6 pm start . D3 loves it and there were fireworks after. D3s first time.

We get home at 1030- yes she did fall asleep at 930- late, I know I know.

Tomorrow will be weird without my buddy.

[littleGTO]

Wow! Awesome GALing w your D, PS!! So proud of you! Now spend your Sunday for you. Make a plan, do something fun, adventurous, relaxing, whatever, but make a plan!

You can do this....I think I can, I think I can, I think I can... I know I can!!!!!!!

[Positivespin]

I AM SUCH A DOORMAT, SUCKER, HIGH ROAD TAKING, GUILT-FILLED CHUMP

So after my Friday session with W I planned to start work on the pool and the window boxes, that my W so identified as hot button issues, on Sunday.

These were the obvious reasons-in her mind- why the house was not sold. Since somehow it was assumed I would do it the house being still not sold.......is my fault.

I remained at the house so that D3 would have consistency. Its "home" to her. However since im at the house Im also responsible for all property management. WHICH I HATE!

Give me a condo or a townhome or a small home- unlike my large home built in 1832 and sitting on 7 acres of land. I want to use my time off to live life- not mulch, mow, weed and paint

So my best friend suggests that if she comes back in October that I move out- Let her own the responsibilities. After all, she made this mess.

But I cant. In my mind whatever happens to w also happens to D3. WHY CANT I SAY "NO"? Why cant I do whats good for ME instead of feeling the need to make sure everyone else is happy? Why am I OK to settle with being taken for granted, lied too, ripped off and then BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING?????

I know- just a typical LBH venting.....but im getting stronger and when you do good- good things happen.

At least my eyes are opening!

[uRworthy]

I dont know, PS, why cant you say no?

I know I was a people pleaser, that's why I couldnt. Why do you think you cant?

Recognizing it is a step in the right direction. Changing it, well, that's where it's at, right?

[RealityTrip]

These were the obvious reasons-in her mind- why the house was not sold. Since somehow it was assumed I would do it the house being still not sold.......is my fault.

Isn't that interesting she thinks that?

However since im at the house Im also responsible for all property management.

Isn't that interesting she thinks that?

Maybe it's time for a talk on her responsibilities in reference to the upkeep of the real-estate?

....And do you want to move out? Don't leave to prove a point to her.