Still at Square One!!!

[DFE]

I'm a FOOL!!! I feel so stupid. H and I have been getting along really well. We spend time together with the kids and he initiates almost all of the outings. I thought we were making progress. I have been nothing but nice. I continue to work with him at our business and am nice and complimentary. I read the 5 love languages and his is words of affirmation. I have been using them because I realize I never gave him the credit he deserved. Neither did his parents so that's a big issue with him.

He calls yesterday to go to the pool with the kids. I said ok. Some friends met us and my friend brought up our annual group vacation. H started getting uncomfortable and told me I need to tell her what's going on with us. He then got upset because we all went to dinner and he wanted to go home. He said this is why everyone thinks I am a jerk because you put me in uncomfortable situations where I have to say no.

It's funny I can't understand how this is different from the vacation he was planning for us when we first separated. Or that he says he still wants us to go to Disney with the kids as a family. Yesterday was an eye opener for me. I really thought we were making progress. I thought we could go on vacation together and that it may even help our relationship. I feel like such a fool.

The anxiety is BACK!!!