An onion, dance lessons and a Harley III

[labug]

subguy, I have been a person who always acted out of emotion, lashing out, moving, changing jobs, usually because someone else was not doing what I thought they should. If I just changed one more thing, then I would be happy.

I let my marriage wither away for the same reasons.

I was the unhappy person and I was the common denominator in all those situations. Hmmmm

Throughout my sitch I have had those feelings of being unsettled, needing to change something. The changes included, selling the house, moving away either within AZ or going back to my home state :0, going back to school, changing career tracks, and filing for divorce. As I've learned more about me, I realize that this is not ME coming up with these ideas, it's fear. Fear of letting my life unfold in front of me, fear of not having control, fear of facing my demons, fear of feeling disrespected.

With all of these ideas of change, people along the way, including my IC have told me to wait, if it's right, it will be right, just be calm, you're not ready yet, sit.

So I have, and they were right. I like where and I am and who I am right now. I have joy in my life. Like you, my life before was comfortable but joyless. I've learned how to be happy, how to honor myself, how to have really great Rs. Like is attracted to like. People who "get" the new, fearless, awake, aware, joyful subguy will be attracted to you and you will be amazed at how much richer your life can be.

You've had such growth through this process subguy, I'm happy for you.