I am with you both on this. I am more and more aware of how much this journey is about me and my growth. It has nothing to do with H anymore. Just like he blamed (s) me for his actions past and present, I did a fair amount of my own projection and displaced hurt with him as well. I was a person I did not like and this is what I needed to begin reevaluating myself and how I treat the people I love.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home