Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

Thanks for the prayers Brobafet! I definitely appreciate them.

So, the last 24 hours or so have been interesting.

Around 2am I received a text from xh. It said that his a/c was out he couldn't sleep (it's 100+ during the day and slightly cooler at night), he was sad that his best friend may not be moving back to Texas so he might move somewhere too and that he hoped my life was going better.

As I was staring at it, trying to decide what to say, if anything he responded with, "and no, I'm not drunk". I was wondering.

Last summer when my a/c went out, he invited me to stay at the house, so I felt it was only fair to return the favor. I said that I would invite him over, but his girlfriends probably wouldn't like that. And that if he decided it was best to move, that was his decision.

He immediately responded that he didn't have a gf, but he didn't want to intrude. I said I wouldn't have offered if he wasn't welcome.

So he came over (after I quickly ran around and picked up any stray clutter) and we had a fairly decent convo before going to sleep.

In the morning we kept talking and it went pretty well. I made coffee and he showed me floor plans for an apt he's thinking of moving into.

I joked that his leasing co should just let me move into his place when he moved out and save the cleaning fees, etc. I've been debating moving and if I do, it would be to that area since my church and all of my friends live over there.

And I love his apt, very bright, etc. And while he has bad memories of choosing it because OW wanted him to, I am not bothered by that. He actually thought that might be a great idea.

He had to drive out of town tonight and I agreed to take him to get his rental car. He said he'd buy me dinner and took me to my favorite restaurant.

When I did go over to his place to pick him up, he stated that he'd talked to the complex and if he added me as a roommate, I would be able to then sign a new lease. I'm not sure if I can afford that rent, or if it'll work, but I was very surprised that he asked and said he wouldn't mind living a block away from me.

On the drive to the airport, he told me more about the one woman he's somewhat dating (she lives in Fl, so he doesn't want to move too fast, although she seems willing to move here, even though she has two kids). He's dropped the others and seems more willing to actually share his feelings with others. That's a 180 for him.

He did say he didn't want to rush into things, because who knows what could happen, that "maybe we'd get back together". I kind of snorted at that, because I honestly couldn't believe he said it.

He kind of looked at me, and said, well, maybe you're not in the same place as me. I would so work on things, but I can't let him think I'm eager.

I'm kind of nervous about that sitch, but he is only looking at 1 bedrooms, so he doesn't seem to be thinking about getting her and her family to move.

We may never get back together, so I don't want to get my hopes up, but we actually had a pleasant day together. We were able to joke around and have a good time. He almost seemed like his old self.

I did a good job of having a PMA and trying to validate him when I could.

Last night at church the message was about God making us change. The point was that it takes a wakeup call for us to know something is wrong and that desperation is necessary for us to do something about it.

It struck a chord with me, because I know I need to work on my communication and relationship skills, but unless this had happened, I probably wouldn't have made the effort. But when everything falls apart, you get to/have to start over.