Week one H quit his job… in that week we had a grandson, H was available and present, we prayed, had family dinner at a restaurant, movie time, he slept at home every night, and we had conversation.
H had blocked EA…it was a good week.
Fri. night, H is MIA after a gig, I locked the screen door when at midnight I hear it being pulled. I say who is that, H replies it’s me, I said why are you here, what do you want!
He said he went to the N side for closure. He cleaned out his stuff from the night job, picked up a check, and saw EA at the bar to tell her to stop using others phone to call him, that they were no longer friends.
That he now see’s that she uses him for his money, car, and food. That she is a terrible alkie who is way too much trouble. And, to stop texting me pretending he’s w her partying because he has been home w me all week.
He says if it’s too little to late I understand, and I will go. I told him to keep talking before I decide anything while I had the door closed behind me standing on the porch w him.
He said he now see’s what he was doing, tho he saw he didn’t see before?! He said he is trying to come home, tho he’s not sure what to do or how he will be content.
He is still struggling w his failures and lack of enthusiasm for life.
He says he likes me, and see’s he may loose me, but believes he would deserve it. Then he asks if I could be patient.
Needless to say I let him in, and told him this is not me the fool, this is me still standing my ground and I am not easily impressed. He said I know you have no reason to believe me.
If I still want him out by 9/1 he will go, and not make threats about the $$$, but he is trying for the future.
A friend of EA’s called this morning and H said in front of me, I have let her go, I’m done with her and I am done w you too, they hung up on him.
He disclosed who it was to me.
Ok, so that’s his plan! What’s mine? Anyone got a crystal ball? I guess for now I am patient! Wait, watch, and keep moving forward!
I said no more sleeping on my couch, it's embracing, dirty, and uninviting for anyone else to enjoy.
I said my house will be a home again, this baby will come to a pleasant loving surrounding.
Stay detached, but yet not to unattached, yea Nero your right about that one, huh
We talked a little before both falling over from extreme exhaustion.
What kind of person do I want to spend the rest of my life w, could H ever measure up? Besides his "in" does/will he have something to offer me?
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
