let's start at the end, shall we?

[KindaHappy1]

So I went forward with attending the wedding. We had a great time dancing and talking to family, Drove home and got my stuff to leave. She didn't mention anything about the fair, so I assumed that I wasn't wanted and did not ask. Now, I am having a very hard day, knowing that my family is having a great time. Everyone who was going was either at the wedding or at my house before, so I feel very left out right now.

Someone close to me told me that they think she is trying to make me hurt right now, and if that's the case, it's working.

She sent me a text this am, saying she had a good time and that she loved the birthday present that me and my boys got her.

I texted back that I had a good time too and that I hoped that we could get together again soon.

I think I need to send the day focusing on myself and what I want and need. I want to try therapy WITH her, and I don't want to push her, so I don't know If I just let her know that if she decides she would like to try, that I will go, or if I just want and see.

I am afraid if I go as dark as I can, she will think that it doesn't matter. There are so many assumptions that have come between us, I feel that it is important that there is conversation, but I don't want to be forcing her.

Thanks for reading.