Nero, I understand now what you are talking about when you mention your stuff. My father was raise during the depression and he saved everything because you never knew when you might need it. I'm that way to a point, but I also know that if I haven't used it within a year or two, then it's time to chuck it. There are some things that you have a connection w/that you can't let go of. I understand your situation better now.
When you are ready, you'll let some of the "stuff" go. You just aren't ready yet.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
