Nero, I'm so sorry you are feeling down. What has happened is that your security and happy life were torn apart w/he started running around and doing things that he shouldn't have been doing. I've been at this for almost 14 years and I'm happy again, but it's not the same type of "happy" like the olden days. It's very different because my world was shattered and I had to realize that the life I once knew was changed forever because you no longer are an innocent in the ways of separation/divorce, etc. Is that how you are feeling?
Eventually, you will get to those closets and you will box/bag up the stuff and get rid of it. For now, it's like a security blanket and one you visit each and every time you open the doors of those closets. I promise you, you will get stronger and that's when the closets will change forever.
Travel safely and know that when you return home, it is your space and you'll feel a bit more comfortable there knowing that he won't be under foot every day.
Take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
