The hardest decision - need advice, please!

[MileHigh]

Not sure if I am going to be here Saturday when she comes. I'm torn. I only get these very brief physical contacts, but I'm having a difficult time with sleeping and work and just don't know if I can put on a good show tomorrow (still the fake it 'til you make it show).

I'm falling back into the mode of wondering if things are going perfectly for her.

I may just give the cat a hug, gather up his carrier and stuff and leave it ready for her. Maybe leave a note that I had to go out and do some stuff (which I do).

I don't know. Thoughts?

[MileHigh]

OK, need the psychics and mind readers. LOL.

W texted me to say girlfriend couldn't make it for their planned dinner tomorrow, so could she come get cat earlier. Asked if she needs to get anything for him, and asked if I need anything.

I didn't answer for a couple hrs ('cause it was nap time). She texts me again saying "If you get a chance, watch Juno. It has Ellen Page"

Remember what I said about her stopping drinking diet Coke, which for her is the equivalent of a crack addiction? Now she wants me to watch a romantic comedy about a pregnant girl?! Ahhhh!

OK, calm... breathing... she does know I like Ellen Page a lot. I'll check it out. Of course the other day I posted on FB how I'd watched "Crazy, Stupid, Love" and I'm sure she saw that and I'm sure she knows I wanted her to see that.

Anyway, that's the first time she's contacted me about something not related to money, picking up stuff from house, or the cat.

Hopefully she didn't text me on accident instead of OM. ;-)

[Confluences]

Make yourself exercise for a solid hour....make yourself sweat and breathe hard. Walk, Walk/Run, Run any will do but get outside and exercise with music. That does wonders for taking your mind off of things and disconnecting and clearing out your emotions. I get cluttered if I miss a day and have to get back out there again.

[MileHigh]

Thanks, confluences. It's easy to fall off the wagon. It's almost midnight, but I'm going to do my exercises and meditation. Bit dark to get out, but tomorrow, for sure, I'm going into town to get my haircut, get some groceries, and treat myself to a nice meal out.

I watched Juno. Outside of the pregnancy topic, it was a beautiful story. And makes me like Ellen Page even more. :-D

[Confluences]

I run at 10pm at night sometimes to beat the summer heat. It's like a metaphor getting out there in the darkness because we're all going thru a dark period right now. There is something comforting about being in the darkness and alone with your thoughts and confronting your fears about all the uncertainty head-on and getting through them when your done with the run.

[MileHigh]

Last week I walked to the store on a dark, moonless night. A couple of kids riding double on a bike almost hit me, swerved to the shoulder and crashed. Let's be careful out there!

I know what you mean, though. My thoughts are clearest when my feet are moving.

[lovethehub]

If it isn't too late, I would not be there when she arrives. Let her wonder what you are doing.

Also, it seems to me that you are sharing the cat when you should be sharing the car. Why not tell her that you are unable to do many of things you need to do, like finding a car, when you don't have one. Let her know that you would like to set up a couple of times a week to be able to use it until you find a new one. That is a very reasonable request and there is no reason she shouldn't be willing to do it.

[MileHigh]

It is. Turns out I was glad I hung around. I was in complete control. Calm, cool, and collected.

She plopped down on the couch and seemed to really want to just hang out for a bit. We watched the tube kind of mindlessly, nattered about the kitties. Nothing serious. Looks even skinnier than before, and still seems pretty stressed.

Got some updates on the kitty last night and this morning.

You're right about the car, and it's something I've pondered. If I'd get off my duff (figuratively) and get serious on my car search....

[Confluences]

That's good that you had an interaction that lead to a quality interaction. It's weird how your instincts will result in a good decision, which is not always the case but I am glad it worked-out better then you had anticipated. You just got to take what you can get right now and not push any R talk. Hang in there.

[RosaLinda]

Hmmmm, DMR, sounds like your DBing is paying off. Just hanging around nattering is a good beginning to a new R in my mind. Better than her coming in just to steal curtains and stuff, right?

Carry on my friend, you're doing great !