This life is more than just a read through

[RosaLinda]

TDF "T2, Snodderly. I let this sitch control me. It spikes my anxiety and with anxiety I don't make the right situations. There is so much hurt and resentment that comes from my W. It is beyond anything I ever seen. I think my sponsor hit it on the head, give up and move on. Do your work, give up, and move on. This is so hard for me to do, but in my heart I know this is what needs to happen. I continue to make mistakes everyday which compounds our issues. I'm not being honest with myself or her at times. She sees right through it.

So at this point I am going LRT and Dark as I can be with kids correct"

Sorry this latest development is making you feel so anxious TDF. I've been thru that when my own H was in his hateful anger stage. That pounding heart, hamster on an exercise wheel, racing thought, out of control feeling is the worst. It does make it hard (impossible?) to think rationally and make good decisions. Deep breathing and  counting my blessings helps me. Maybe you could try some exercise or meditation or deep breathing?

Please don't give up and move on while you are feeling like this. LRT is hard when you're living together but I watched a youtube about "limited contact" for married couples living together that said it can be even more effective than no contact between people living apart. It said the potential WAS can really feel you pull away, really see your changes and will start to realize that SHE is losing YOU!

So do what T says, dim it down, and focus on you and your kids. Good luck TDF, hang in there.