NEW LIFE / NEW ME

[Fartiltre]

W and I talk almost every day on the phone. She initiates the most and I try to stay with my 3 to 1 rule. I am kind and pleasant when she contacts me but I also try to end the convos.

I have been GALing a lot. It seems like a lot of people have gathered around me deciding to help me through this. I haven’t asked for this but I appreciate and enjoy it. I have been out for the last three evenings and will be as well for the next days.

I miss my children a lot and look forward to them being here next week. W and Ds will come by tomorrow morning – that will be nice. I also talked with Ds on phone this evening – also nice!!
I am feeling good! Better than I expected to. I guess the major thing in this for me was talking to the children. W moving out was nothing compared to this and I have been busy working the house and GALing since, so I haven’t felt lonely. The feeling of being alone in the house hits me but that’s not the same as feeling lonely.

I had a session with DB-coach today. It was nice talking through the sit with coach and she gave me advice and confirmed the path I have planned to follow.
My path is laid out for now.
I won’t go completely dark and therefore stay with the 3-1 rule of contact. When W has contacted me 3 times I will initiate contact once. When she has invited three times I will accept one and so on. When we talk I will be pleasant and nice! I will ask questions about her. When we meet I will still do the walk by touches and also compliment her.
We also talked a lot about patience! As I feel right now I have a lot of patience so only showstopper will be OM or OW (I am also single now!) I don’t mind W having one night stands but a serious relationship will damage this.
Coach told me about the anger that WAS feels and that W will have to address this at some point possible.

I feel good, ready for life and the issues I have to deal with in the weeks and months to come.

Next week I have a session at shrink and unless she tells me to do otherwise I am good to go