Lost, confused and trying to make a stand

[brobafet]

Weniki,

I've been trying what you suggested this entire week. Here is what I notice. When I pray and concentrate on that spot then open my eyes, stress seems to float away from there. Does that make sense?

I've been praying. A TON. I know I cannot control her actions but it really bothers me that she already has someone else and my kids have met him. It bothers me to think that I may not find another person. Right now I am in a place where I'm floating. I want a better future but I think of the past. I am lonely and I really miss being intimate with someone and I feel as though I will be alone, and for a while but it has only been two months and I know I shouldn't be thinking of being with another person but I do.

This suuuucks.