So W had to fill out her W-4...this was uncomfortable, because she hasn't done it in so long, and how to do the deductions....I SOOO wanted to say, "depends on if we are going to be married or not, makes a difference..."
But, I just acted "as if" and suggested for if we are still going to be married and all, without saying it...and that's what she rolled with...
Why can't she just say something like "I am not leaving, I still have a bunch of stuff to work through, but I want to stay married to you, I see the possibility of a great R" or something like that...man, that would get rid of the limbo feelings in me. My work is expanding, the next 2 years is going to be awesomely crazy busy building new things and secure my future, the kids' future, hers if she sticks around...and a lot of work, a lot of stress...I don't need this limbo, or a D in the middle of it and all the change and stress that entails. Arrrrgh!!
Ok, done venting...lol...not always so detached...sneaks in every now and then. This limbo does have it's draining power, that's for sure, have to re-claim detached...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
