18th anniv came & went on Monday. I actually made it very well through the day as I am on vaca w boys.
H calls and wants to talk to me. Says he's been thinking about me all day and went to text me 3 or 4 times but didn't really come out right. He wanted me to know he was thinking of me and hopes I was doing okay today. That he knows it was a hard day for me (but actually it wasn't).
He also says he cares for me. Then he proceeded to tell me the 5 things he did around the house while we're gone (so I thanked him genuinely).
His call was sincere and it did make me cry.
But I am no longer confused where H is concerned. It is time for me to move on with my life. And I already am.
Not looking forward to the conflict involved with "D."
He has talked to boys a couple of days and asked to talk to me twice. Each time he seems very down. When I asked him why? he said he was depressed about being alone so much and no family around and nothing to do while we are gone (too bad R w OW is not progressing, huh?!). (I think they are waiting for her D to be final...not sure, really.)
Again, it means me feel better to know that his life isn't as happy as he hoped it would be without me in it...and I feel his R w OW has been in Fantasyland for sooooo long that whenever it does proceed forward (into a PA) it will never live up to whatever expectations he has for it.
Time will tell, but at that point (and now) it is no longer my concern.
Thus, the reason why I think about Sven...it gives me hope for a future relationship (and I'm pretty sure it won't be with him but Sven is symbolic for me).
Again, time will tell. And, I will try to heed all advice!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
