Surviving Separation

[slow_it_down]

Sometimes I think God has an interesting way of reminding me he's always around and listening. He doesn't always give me exactly what I'm asking for but shows he's there. Within 5 minutes of posting here that I'd like to see H at least one time before the baby is born, my H randomly texted to ask if he could pick something up from my house on Tuesday. Its the first time since he's moved out that he's needed to come back for anything. It is something he legitimately needs that day so I don't see it as a play to see me under a guise or anything like that. Still, I got a good chuckle that I may just get what I asked for (seeing him) even if it isn't exactly what I wanted (my H wanting to see me).

Oh well. I'll take it.

Also, I was reading something on another sitch that really spoke to me and I wanted to jot it down here as a reminder. Something along the lines of 'become a friend first, then a friend thats fun to spend time with, then a friend thats fun to be intimate with and go from there.' I really liked the simplicity of it, focusing on just being a friend w/o needing to spend time together. I thought 'hey, I can do that.' It made me feel a little better about being 'ok' with just accepting that for now our relationship involves a small amount of daily texting... aka baby steps toward friendship I think.

I'm trying not to read too much into things but this is day 4 of H reaching out to me via text for positive upbeat conversation. He even shared something that was somewhat personal/embarrassing today and seems to be opening up a bit.