My girly friend and I put things on the back burner. I was worried about getting too involved, too soon, and she was worried that things between xw and I aren't settled yet...all valid concerns. I miss spending time with her, but I was definitely getting too wrapped up in it.
XW and I are getting along pretty good for the most part. She told me the other day that she had talked to OM and then seen him at a work thing, and a day later, I went off and told her I wouldn't be a friend or anything more as long as he was in the picture. Mostly it was fear on my part....and I apologized and explained a few days later. XW was very understanding, which I found a touch weird. She has been very forthcoming about what she's doing, when, and with who, and while I've said, "you don't need to explain to me," she's said, "I want you to know."
XW started seeing a new IC, which I think is awesome. I'm hopeful she starts digging thru her stuff in the near future. I thought her last IC was an idiot, but I guess that was partly because XW never told her the complete truth about anything.
The connection is still really strong with us and it bothers me a little....only because I know there's a risk involved. Yesterday was our anniversary....16th year. I asked her to lunch, and went where we did on our wedding day for lunch. I gave her a card and a book with marriage quotes. She cried a little and was very happy. After my golf outing, she asked me to come over, and it turned into a sleepover. And while it was awesome, it scares the hell out of me at the same time.
All in all, I feel great. I'm busy, I'm happy, I'm running a lot, prepping for tough mudder, planning a trip to NC in a few weeks, and probably CA in a month or two. Still trying to get the new place bought and fixed up, but all in all, it's a happy craziness right now.
