You sound very organised, more than I ever have been. It sounds like you are putting a lot of pressure on yourself. It's good that you are working on yourself just make sure you don't burn yourself out.
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some part of me thinks that the only way she can behave like this is due to total detachment from her and her being gone for good. I hate this last thought!
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One major problem I have is that she stated prior to BD that she doesn’t believe in people changing.
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I have thought, written, looked for small steps to the outmost extent – it has almost been driving me crazy!
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My only problem is that she is being so nice. As time passes I tend to turn towards this being a negative.
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I do feel hopeless more and more often as times go by.
I have felt all the above at different times. It's not nice to feel them things F but they aren't a sign of where you will eventually land.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
