We actually sorta worked together in the kitchen last night...she made dinner...I was going to make dinner, but deferred to her since she had something planned.
W came to the bedroom doorway, she wanted me to verify some turkey, if it was still good (I was in bedroom reading, the bedroom is on a different level of the house) so I said bring it over, but she insisted that I come to kitchen to make sure it looked okay (the bedroom has full spectrum daylight lighting in the ceiling fixture, I think it would have been bright enough, lol) so I followed her up and yes, it was fine, both smell and sight...This was "different", normally she'd just bring it over where I was to check it out and then leave (even pre-mlc days)...
...So W hurts herself in kitchen, and after showing appropriate concern, I go into "parent-mode"..."Do you want me to kiss the boo-boo and make it allll betterrrrr?" with the parent look that you'd give to a 4 year old, but exagerrated. She just had this look of "did he just say that?", putting down what she was holding, then starts to smile, almost laugh and looks at me...I just couldn't hold the "parent" expression and start to bust up laughing saying "I can't do it, I can't do it!" and just let loose with laughter (I'm almost positive a snort was involved) and I start to walk away laughing, she is actually almost laughing saying "what the heck?" and I just say "Oh man, I crack me up, I'm the funniest person I know cuz I crack me up more than anyone else I know" (where did that come from and how did it slip out? lol)
Then she says... "DID YOU just say "you're the funniest person you know cuz you crack yourself up more than anyone else ?"
I went "yup, it just slipped out somehow" shrugging. Went about my business herding cats or whatever.
Thing is, I SAW the "old look" when she thought I was funny/fun/whatever from all these years...it was there for that minute.
What was cool was it just flowed natural, just being me (new+old)...no try, just be.
Maybe a wee crack in the wall happened?
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
