Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

RosaLinda, I feel bad that you read all my long rambles over the past year.

I guess I wasn't clear on the shooting incident. OW used her bf's gun to shoot a male friend (unhappily married, fooling around with their mutual female friend) who was playing around with that other friend.

She was drunk and got jealous that she wasn't the center of attention, so she aimed the gun to stop them. Sadly, she'd done the same thing a few days before, but they were all stupid enough to keep hanging out together and drinking.

Bf is crazy enough to still be with her. Guess she'll stick around til all his money is gone too. Think it's funny that she's on the 2nd "love of her life" in 2013 alone. I'm 13 years older than her and I'm not sure I've had that many my whole life!

Xh knows that he's messed up because of all the crap she did to him, but still doesn't seem to understand that if he wasn't already messed up he never would have considered dating her.

It makes me so sad that they cannot or will not see that the person who loves them the best and who would make them the happiest is the same person they have kicked to the gutter.

Yes, for some reason he can't get over anything bad that I've ever done, but can forgive all the crazy ow's.

When his real friends, fake friends, and ow's would walk away from him, he'd always ask why I was still there for him and still cared. Hmm, because I was the only one in the first place that took a vow to be with him forever? No friend ever signs a lifelong contract.

Xh's mom is worried about him. She says he tries to sound happy, but she knows that he's really sad. I feel bad that she lives 6 hours away and just worries about him. She told me that she felt so much better when I was with him because she knew I'd watch out for him.

I think, cannot be sure, but I think that even if we D, I will not be completely done until he remarries. That would sure be the end for me.

You know, I'd say the same thing, but I also thought I'd be done when xh went public with ow3 and then when we were D'd. I finally realized I can't predict how I'll feel until it happens.

I looked up articles the other day of exes who remarried each other. A few of them had other spouses in between, so you never know...