The Show Must Go On

[BrightFuture]

Linda, Portia, Ruby, Wonka thank you for your comments and advice.

Linda, while I was at vacation home place, I went to the beach a lot, with my dog. I found it to be very relaxing in the ocean. You are right, I’m sure there are lots of women who would be willing to pretend in order to catch my H, but even our mutual friend in Mexico (GF) mentioned that he is too selfish right now and doesn’t tolerate anything that he doesn’t like. She said that in her opinion he will have really hard time finding someone, especially after having me as his wife.

Ruby, I like how you put it “He is thinking "There is better out there..." Ummm....no. There is not lol! Trust me on this one “. I know that what he had with me will be very difficult to repeat. He will not find everything I had to offer with somebody else. Our mutual friends, my GFs, my sister and her H think the same way too. There are a lot of people who are scratching their heads when they find out that the separation idea was H’s, not my. While in our vacation home place, I went to the BBQ hosted by the couple who I knew through my friends. The woman knew a little about my story, at least she knew I was separated. I talked to her husband, who barely knew me, and he asked about my situation. When I told him that we were separated, he said “If it would me, I would not let you go, you are such a nice person.”

I think you are right about the desperation part. For H to sing up in the dating site is quite an unusual step. He hates this kind of things, especially when they start sending him advertisements and offers to buy more services. He is still not active on that site, so I’m not sure if he is using it at all, or just looking at the profiles without being visible.

Portia, Wonka, I agree with you that I need to change the dynamics sometime and test the waters. I guess I’m waiting for the right moment.

Wonka, H’s texts come pretty regularly, once a week. Last phone conversation was about 5 weeks ago. His texts are about business, asking me to send him the updated company file. The strange thing now is that he didn’t send the file back for a second time. I had to ask once, and I need to ask again, since I’m getting ready to do some my updates. He also didn’t send the confirmation that he received the files. He knows that I need to do the updates eventually, so IDK what to think of this. Is he waiting for me to ask? Does he just not care?