Two roads diverged in a yellow wood...

[chasingpavements]

Thanks SailingAlone! We had a great past few days, and interacted a lot better than we have in MONTHS! It was such a good feeling for me. It starts to wear on you after a while of having so many negative/emotional days.

You bring up a good point about the cycling. I am going to keep on trying to give him the space he needs, 'lovingly distancing'. In previous weeks there has been a lot of tension between us, despite him having all sorts of space. Lately I am trying something different, just to be friendlier to him. I think perhaps I was coming across as being cold to him. What I am doing seems to be working and it seems he is reaching out to me, although I am definitely going to take it slow! I am going to be very careful in reaching out to him, because, like you said, once you do, they seem to withdraw back into themselves and escape again.

I am happy that we are finally able to joke around with each other, and he is talking to me a lot more. I hope we can keep it up, as I feel SO much better right now. And when I feel better then I have a lot more energy to do the things like jogging, which also helps me feel better! I think it is like that with depression, ironically you do not have the energy to do the things that in turn will help you feel better.