The Show Must Go On

[BrightFuture]

Portia, I’m with you here, about the rules of contact. I see all these advices to initiate the communication myself sometimes, but I think I’m not ready. I don’t have any expectations, but I just don’t want to give him false impression that I’m pursuing. He might interpret it this way, IDK. I guess I’m waiting for a bigger sign that he will be open to some communication from my side.

I have the same impression that he signed to a dating site because he is lonely and because he cannot find a partner he wants (willing to go to the bars with him, responsible and fun, no nagging, no jealousy, no demands, no arguments about anything, no small kids, not too fat, in other words a harmonious relationship.) But it tells me that he hasn’t changed his mind about ending our M and looking for a new R. I’m thinking that until he tries what is out there and finds that what he had with was the best ever, he will continue looking. But if he gets involved into a R, even though it will not work, I might be done by then. IDK if I will be able to have an R with him after that. I think that knowing that he signed for a dating site stops me from initiating any contact.