Don't worry about why she left, just concentrate on you
I was going to write this also. It's hard as hell and yes it $ucks but trying to figure out the why's will keep you stuck. I think what Cadet said is very true. This is about her and the 'bomb' that went off inside her triggered her to run and you are the casualty of war. It's not fair, you may never know the real reason, and you have no control over anything in your sitch changing. What you do have full control over is you and your actions.
Where I'm going with all that is...
What are you doing for you right now?
What can you do to start moving forward and stop asking questions that may not even have answers at this point?
This new situation in your life is your new reality, fair or not. You can keep asking why (knowing you may never know) or you can take control of your new life.
Believe me, I'm not down playing your hurt, your confusion, or anything like that. A few things you've said through your thread stirred emotions in me from my own sitch. I spun around on the why machine for a long time and it never got me anywhere.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
