At ball game I received a few different texts from cute D'ed guy. H was standing next to me and saw who the texts were from, I think. Shortly thereafter H said he knew I was texting other guys and didn't feel comfortable so he was going to leave.
That's a strange reaction from your H, I mean this is the guy that wants a D and is actively engaged in an A, and he said he was leaving simply because you were texting someone? Peculiar.
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Rather than try to defend myself or explain the texts (as they were very innocent & I would have shared the content w H) I said nothing.
It's really not his business, so I don't see a problem with that. It goes along with the DB principal of being mysterious too.
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I wanted to say, "Well, maybe you feel just a .0001% of an ounce of how I've felt all these months." ...even though my texts were very innocent and not from someone who I am having an EA with!
I secretly hope that H is feeling sickened by the fact that I will have a life with another guy after him. That my life didn't end b/c he moved onto another woman. That he feels saddened and upset and all the emotions I have felt.
Sooooo, how's that detachment going? You want revenge. I understand that, we've all had a twinge of that (some more than others). But just try to remember that anger and revenge are a reflection of the pain you're feeling, and it's the pain you need to address. Your H hurt you. Hurting him back will not relieve your pain. Sort through the pain, find your way to forgiveness and the anger and desire for revenge will go away. This is a big step you have to take towards dropping the rope. You can do it, just remember it's about you, not H
You want revenge. I understand that, we've all had a twinge of that (some more than others). But just try to remember that anger and revenge are a reflection of the pain you're feeling, and it's the pain you need to address. Your H hurt you. Hurting him back will not relieve your pain. Sort through the pain, find your way to forgiveness and the anger and desire for revenge will go away. This is a big step you have to take towards dropping the rope. You can do it, just remember it's about you, not H 