round and around we go

[willbwell]

H likes to say that we are on different paths. He knows my path...taking care of our children and home. I have asked him what his 'path' looks like?

H says he grew apart from me. that the gulf is too big. He will say he is sorry. the ILYBMIL. he doesn't want to work. he doesn't care what a therapist would say.

he wants to be friendly and amicable. I have remained so always leaving the path home accessible. He's returned twice since initial separation. I have given him his space.

We will forever be connected(or so I think) because of our D who has special needs. She will never live on her own. She will live with me or possibly in the future in a group home. This is part of my path. I do not begrudge it.

my fear is of being alone. My plans for the future, I thought would include both me and H taking care of D together. H wants to go off and do his own thing. He already has r with ow. he is not one to be alone. Yes, I try to push these thoughts out of my head. life is not fair. I know. Its how we choose to respond.