Thanks FY - I almost feel like I should keep the ticket as a souvenir. . Thank you too for your kind words. The downside to NC is that I then have trouble dealing with contact especially now when I am trying to protect myself.
SBR, nice of you to stop by!! I would have to agree. My gut tells me there is something he wants me to know that may be good for him but not for me. One of the results of his MLC was his conviction that he now wanted the white picket fence life which included children. Prior to that neither of us wanted children. I still do not. I guess I can't see anything labelled by him as good unless it fits into that picture.
The sad truth of it is is that these last four months have been a struggle for me, finalizing my parents estate, dad in hospital and more funerals than I have been to in my life. I don't want him to know any of this. And I feel a bit of a failure on the GAL front
I have changed a lot on the inside but not much on the outside. If he has made all these changes, I feel a little resentful. My life has been difficult and I have been going through alone. I know that sounds petty.
After sitting on this for a bit, I am wondering if I shouldn't bite the bullet and ask what is it you wanted to tell me? Snodderly asked if I could still be friends even while he is seriously with someone else. With as much water as there is under that bridge now I don't think so. So maybe it is best to know now? If he has moved in with her or anything more serious, I can say good bye.
. Thank you too for your kind words. The downside to NC is that I then have trouble dealing with contact especially now when I am trying to protect myself. 
