WAW just said that she wants to move on

[Confluences]

Thanks, S_I_D~

We were civil during the first part of our separation but I think I was honestly in a state of disbelief that it was actually happening. I helped her move into her apartment but things deteriorated quickly after that and we started arguing about financial matters. End of June until July 1st, she said that she was not seeing anyone but "wanted to be open to that possibility" (which I interpreted as someone probably asked her out for a date or something). I know that I was in MLC mode for the past few years and that I deserved her moving out on me and I've accepted that level of responsibility and really don't hold it against her. Now I'm just like whatever with her and I'm not going to beg or plead with her but I want us to work because I know there is a special relationship still possible if we get past this firestorm.

It all started out back in April as "all my girlfriends want us to work out", etc. and quite honestly they all told me in July that she should give it more time to work...I think they all see the same person that I'm seeing: someone with vetting out her justifiable anger and is being an ingrate and reprobate just to prove her point.

My Partner and I are getting close to getting funds cleared with compliance officers and the financial matters will be eliminated for good.....but actions speak louder than words and I have not completed the task and she does not want anymore promises...which I understand.

Once this is completed, I hope to take a 10 day trip out to Seattle in Sep and drive the PCH down to Monterrey. Basically, car camp by the ocean, take photos, play some golf, hit a few wineries, etc. I have a few buddies that will post the Picasa Links of my photos on Facebook (she blocked me from her page) so that she (and her girlfriends) can see my GAL travels without her there on this trip...as we've been there together before. The #1 goal is to decompress and relax but also to show her that life is moving forward with or without her in the picture.

She cannot file for divorce until 4-6-14, so I got some time for her to come back around but it's going to take effort. Might as well enjoy the journey without her and show her what she's missing in the process.

Biggest improvement to myself is I lost 25 pounds via the Divorce Diet and all her girlfriends compliment me on my appearance but I think it made her mad as she has not lost weight due to her cooking habits. My stamina and self confidence improved and I've been wearing my skinny clothes that I could not wear for the past 8 to 10 years, which is surreal as I struggled with weight loss for the past 8 years. Went from 205 to 180...which is really nice for me.

Thanks for inquiry and thoughts...every bit helps.