Surviving Separation

[slow_it_down]

Thanks for stopping by my thread Confluences. Doesn't it just blow your mind that 5 weeks could pass without your spouse reaching out? Even when I'm feeling "ok" about life I still catch myself in awe that it's been 3 months of him showing little to no regret about vanishing. Just seems surreal to me.

Thanks for this line "keep the faith", I needed to hear that tonight.

As expected my H texted me bright and early to ask about the baby today. I had a feeling he'd wait until he was at work to check in rather than making contact over the weekend. Instead of keeping the conversation going as I am usually tempted to do, I replied "nothing yet." And let the conversation end quickly.

I woke up in a bad mood with a stomach ache wondering if I was in labor. For him to text me at work as predicted really rubbed me the wrong way. Like he can only show interest/excitement when he's way from OW. Luckily I did not have the baby today because I found myself being more irrational, moody and emotional than usual and would like to be in a better mood come delivery day! Plus it's days like today that I'm glad we are apart right now. I can have my own little pity party w/o him ever knowing about it.

Time for some sleep, I know tomorrow will be a much better day.