Moving forward together from a mess

[cbtdad]

Thanks Urworthy. I'm really trying my hardest to be patient about this. I start taking it personal. I know it's "mind reading" and stinkin thinking, but its hard not to think its not me. I just think back to last year when out sex life became almost non existent and then she had a 6 month rendezvous with another guy that I know was hot and heavy based on things I've seen. Now back to us working on it for a couple months and no sex like last year. Just very tough and it showed today.
I lost my temper for the first time in a long time. It felt awful, I was so upset at myself for losing my temper.
She just keeps saying its awkward, but says she doesn't know why it's awkward. That's so annoying to me. You have to be thinking something!
In the end i told her we need to figure out this intimacy issue because I will not live in a sexless marriage. Especially with a woman who still drives me crazy everytime she walks in the room:)
My W is extremely attractive. She is the woman that everyone turns around and looks at when she walks in, even other women. Lol
Just trying to hang in there with this issue.
I have left 2 messages for therapist I was referred to and he hasn't called yet. We need to be back in MC ASAP and I am trying to do that