Thank you sooo much for your replies! Bright you are absolutely right when you say that others can sometimes see our sitches better than we can.
I didn't realize how much his words had hurt me or made me spin. ALL the changes are good? Then where does the ignoring my texts and not speaking to me for months come in? I felt a real anger and wanted to text him that reply. Did he even realize what he said?
So I have not responded. And truthfully I am still debating if I will. In RL's words I am not interested in picking off the scab. I won't be asking about the changes if I do. Sorry, KML and MM but I feel if he wants to tell me something important to him he needs to tell me. Perversely, I know he wants me to ask but I am not making this easy. I would sure like to think that he would not contact me after all this time to tell me he is getting married, etc. but since he felt he did nothing wrong I wouldn't bet my $2 on it.
I no longer have a fear of losing him. For the last four months I already did and I was getting stronger. My fear is for me now. I don't want to go backwards. But as you all pointed out, I don't know what changes he is referring to. I was just more angry at the fact that he could say all was good when I haven't been in his life. I told MM that I don't want to be a word tracker and here I am.
On the positive side he did write that he had been tracking the weather in my hometown which is something he always used to do pre BD. I am not reading anything into that in terms of where he is at but if that is true then he was thinking of me a little.
Thank you everyone for all of your posts. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you all. I will keep you posted!
