"I get frustrated because she will accuse me of so many terrible things and tell so many lies about me and then say something like: "I prayed for a miracle for us."
This is why no contact is best......I am sure this gives you hope and she knows it.I dont talk to my married ex AT ALL. to painful, when he calls I take the call but that is very rare and I like it that way.....
I know how you are feeling and it's sad but it is what it is....don't try to read something into every word that comes out of her mouth....I know I say I am a stander but I do have my life to lead, if he comes back ,so be it, I will have a testimony for my family...if he never does I know I did all I could praying on my knees and being faithful to God.
I do have a life and I enjoy it.....feels very liberating please try to not contact her or her contact you "at this time you sound to me like the waiting by the phone to ring that never rings".....
I have been at this for a very long time and it hurts to see someone in so much pain but you really do have to not have any contact to start healing you really do...for your own sake just do it no calls no texts nothing do it for you....it does help
