Thanks NLT! Another night hawk? My biggest curse. Yes, the text was pretty generic, so generic that I forgot to mention it! It has been about three months since I have heard anything from him.
Yep, 2 whole dollars! And apparently an out of the blue text - who knew a lottery ticket could bring so much! It is just too funny and so fitting for our situations!
Bea, your post means a lot to me since I have followed your situation along. It is nice to be understood by all of you - the wary feeling that life was finally moving forward a bit and the fear that I will be sucked back in.
FY, you are right about being thrown in the deep end. Probably not what he intended, but he actually forced me to live without him and I did it.
Thanks Ms. RL - you can drive us as nuts as you want as long as you don't mind the occasional 2 x 4 or, maybe just one of those pool noodle things when required I cannot tell you how strange it was to get that text - generic as it was. Thank you for saying he was thinking of me; yes, I guess that is true. I am just...wary. Now I am the little animal that is scared to trust even the smallest movement.
Hi Snodderly, you always said that he would contact one day. I did not expect it to be because of lottery ticket, but hey! I have asked myself those same questions. The truth is, I don't even know if they are still together or if he's moved on to someone else. I guess, too, I have no expectations that this is anything but what Bea described as a "touch and go". Again, learning by experience has brought home to me ho little time appears to mean to an MLCer.
So, here is an update (feels strange to be giving one!). I did reply to the text - generically, with a little joke and just asked how life is in his neck of the woods. It felt very wrong to ignore the text in the end, so I didn't.
A couple of hours later, he replied. With a long-ish text. Well, compared to our round three months ago, it was long. No questions but a mention of one of our favourite old swimming holes. Starting with a beginner's mind alright, we are reduced to talking of the weather!
I have not had time to reply between errands and updating but I likely will for my own selfish reasons. In case this is a blip in the universe, I want to reply with some information about my GAL; that I am not the broken person I was when we last spoke. Not with any expectations, good or bad.
I guess I am not as ready as I thought to slam the door shut.
I cannot tell you how strange it was to get that text - generic as it was. Thank you for saying he was thinking of me; yes, I guess that is true. I am just...wary. Now I am the little animal that is scared to trust even the smallest movement.
