wbw our sitchs are so similar it's scary. I've just been at this a lot longer.

Thing is I know he still loves me. The tears I saw in his eyes the other day were sadness. He is so confused. But I also think I have made it too easy for him.

He knows that I love him and that I want to keep the family together. I want him to know that I am not standing forever and I think standing for as long as I did was an accomplishment.

I also think that from now until the d he will continue to see how much I really have changed. At the same time I think his r with ow is there but not what it once was. Maybe he will wake up before it is final. A part of me feels bad that I'm not going to continue to stand for him while I know he is confused and hurting; but the other part of me is saying I have waited for you for so long. He also has not realized that he played a part in this.

He realizes he was wrong for having an a but still believes he was pushed.

When you guys talk Wednesday hopefully a lot will come out. Our conversations lately have been tearful. I think since we are dbing we keep our cool and can really see things for what they are - confused and hurting not knowing what to do.

Keep it up - you're doing great and really listen when you talk and make sure you validate what he is saying. I made sure to do that a lot when we talked the last few times and that is when I feel like I got a good glimpse of what's going on with him.

M 48 H 50
M 25 T 27
D 20,18,15
6/11 H filed
3/12 H dropped
4/12 H moved out