chris B- "I am going after work to but the DR book. Anything else I need to do?"
EAT SLEEP EXERCISE!!! Someone here gave me some very good advice. I don't have time to look up who it was but here it is:
Hypothetically, lets say your S was never coming back. (Aliens abducted her and took her away, never to return).
What would you do differently tomorrow knowing that she wont be returning?
How would you get on with your life when you wake up the next morning?
Make a list and write it down. Then, when you wake up tomorrow, START DOING THOSE THINGS!
Losing your S, no matter how you lose them, is never easy. You need to grieve the loss of your S but you need to take care of yourself too. Get out and GAL, eat sleep and exercise. Go hang out with your friends and family (do your best to have a PMA when your around them).
If you need to vent or talk it out, find one or two people who you are close to you and hash it out with them. I did not have anyone I could talk with, that lived close to where I live. They live on the other coast. I started going to MC and it helped me to cope with the emotions I was going through. MC's are trained to help you through this kind of crisis.
Use this forum to vent and journal what you are going through. Ask lots of questions and read everything about MLC/WAS on this BB. It WILL help you understand what is going on. Like I said before, this is NOT your fault, but it is your problem now.
We are all here going through similar situations so we can empathize with you and try to help.
Start working on improving you, TODAY. Don't wait until tomorrow.