Good morning, I am okay, but not at my best. UR is right, there is an air of sadness about me, it's not all consuming, but it is a part of me.
Urworthy,
Thank you, your words are very calming and right on target w what I need to hear. I pray you are doing well and your son.
~~~I'm struggle w how H will be home at night now, 8 yrs after I cried for him to make the change for me.
I asked him this morning...why did you quit your job, he didn't want to talk about it, but said he has some guilt feelings.
I believe the reason comes in several parts...he was really frustrated w the new work load...tho I know he would have endured.
He told me days leading up to this that he wanted to be done w EA and this would be the way to not have to look her up, because he wouldn't be stuck north of the city between gigs.
So is it ok that he had to literally leave to leave her? Does it count...has anyone gone thru this and it made the difference?
Then there is the slightest thought that he left also because of my date. Tho he has done nothing impressive or concrete could this be his way of "choosing me" for lack of better explanation.
I believe the answer is a combination of them all, and maybe he really doesn't know for sure.
LIke I said, he came home, declared having left his anger, EA, and bad attitude there at the job. He said he is "home" and I made sure he defined "home" and as he did, he also throw in about bring up his L for me again.
OMG! what do I want? Well, I thought I was throwing out my H and ending my R of 24yrs, once again he beat me and throw me thru the loop.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
