J, you are a talented, strong, beautiful woman. You have strength, you proved it when you moved away, got a new job and took care of your kids but you've bought into the belief that you don't matter. Wouldn't you like to get rid of that negative voice in your head?

We can give you lots of advice and encouragement but the first step must be yours. ___________(the universe, God, whatever) keeps presenting you with these lessons and they will continue to be presented until you make a move to change things.

But the first step is yours.

It will be hard but you've done hard things before.

k_g gave you some great suggestions above.

You can do this.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss