Interesting times

[RosaLinda]

"Bea what my xh does now bores me, it isn't adult and it isn't interesting. While you are dealing with it up close and personal it is hurtful but with the lens of distance and time, it is rather pointless, definitely laughable and somewhat pathetic. These are men in late middle age for goodness sake.

What they do is of no interest to the world, and we need to take the high road. I had a dream last night about xh and a friend said (in the dream) 'You know he always was a bit of an (expletive deleted) And I remember thinking, 'He really was'. I loved him but he could be a real pain. 

Try and let go of these sad and destructive people and look at the blessings in your life. They are broken and they are trying to take you down with them. Hang on and dig yourselves out. You need to live even if they decide to drown in the mire. "

I guess I'm not in the digging out stage yet Bea. I do have a patience shovel, but am only using it to keep myself from being sucked under into the quicksand his current relationship is built upon. But I'm still hoping my H will escape with me. And that he'll turn his heart and mind back to me again one day. It's possible! Even probable....

My H is almost beyond late middle age. He'll turn 60 in a few months. It boggles my mind that my 60 year old husband is infatuated with a 58 year old skanky slut who calls him her "boyfriend." He is a married man for God's sake. 

But for some reason I still love him. I'm sort of counting on this conjugal visit helping him get the Tramp out of his system. Maybe, depending on how he acts when he returns, the sheer ridiculous-ness and pathetic-ness of it will sink in, and I'll be able to stop standing like you have. I actually sort of thought you were still standing a bit, but guess I was wrong. But right now, I really still love H Bea.