My Story - Need Help... Is there hope?

[truelovewaits]

Hey Sandi,

Thanks again for the wisdom... The D is already filed, we did that a bit ago. Nothing is final it should be in the next few months though.

I do have a great deal I'm working on with regard to my own GAL. As a man my goal has always been to be a better man today than I was yesterday. I've come a long way this year in terms of my body, mind, and soul. I've grown more than I ever could have imagined and continue my education on a daily basis. I'm working out, reading much more, evaluating what I want out of life, meeting new people, learning new hobbies, and stumbling along the way. I'm growing but also realize there is a great deal of work to be done. This experience has only quickened my resolve and accelerated my growth in that it has made me greatly aware of every mistake I have made and ever flaw I wish to correct. It is going to take a while, maybe years but I'm growing and learning every day.

The funny thing is that so many of the amazing things I'm doing makes my mind go to her. I say to myself how much she would love this experience, or that one, or how amazing it would be to share this or that with her.

Today started horribly as it was actually worse than yesterday. When I read your response I was emotional and very sad. By the end of the day it was magical, there are no other words to describe it. I met kindred spirits that were beacons of light and hope on my journey and they really helped shift my perspective at least for today. If this feeling fades tomorrow I can at least say that I felt something close to bliss today. I've been happy a great deal during this and sad, but nothing like this. By the end of today I went from pretty sad to unbelievably happy. I'd swear it was almost bi-polar. I've never experienced anything like this.

I was able to discuss all of this and we all connected on a very deep level, it was beautiful. We also expressed what we have learned and what we want a year from now. The most amazing thing was how much better I felt being around these people - some of whom I had just met. You ever just connect with people Sandi? I mean really connect? We were sharing intimate feelings, details, experiences, hopes and dreams like we've known each other for our entire life times. It felt beautiful.

My W is still in my thoughts and I do love her and miss her. However, after speaking with one of the woman today I want to feel as she does. It was so beautiful, so pure and full of passion and love. It was beyond acceptance and wishing your partner happiness and love. It was a true love without expectation and a gratitude for everything that has transpired.

I pray that I find this feeling and that the feelings I have today stay as your words and these experiences are truly resonating with what I want - with or without my W.

The bitter does certainly make the sweet that much sweeter, I thank you for your wisdom and kind advice. I really do appreciate your wisdom and help in this difficult time. Thank you again for your support.