Am I kidding myself.

[Hopefull2]

Hi friends, it has been a while... I am back from three months overseas and life has not stopped since I have made it back.

I had very limited contact with W while gone but all contact was positive. I really am trying to live by the mantra that I want her to feel positive about each contact we have. I try my best at PMA and to put this to reality with the life that I have to live.

Prior to returning I did apply some "pressure", gentle persuation as you will to get her to go out with me for her birthday. I was only going to be in town for a few days and wanted to make the best of it. She never said yes and was sending the message loud and clear that she was not sure where we are at or where we are going, but went anyway and thanked me afterwards. Was a nice night, saw a play which I knew she would enjoy going to (she has only been a couple of times but has enjoyed them each time). I treated her with respect and caring and was able to get a goodnight kiss before leaving, ok I tried for a second but was denied, I deserved that.... She emailed me the next day thanking me for a good night out. Before flying out I bought her a card and a flower arrangement and left them on her back porch. She again thanked me and said they were nice.
More to catch up with but enough for tonight. I am trying a few things to open more communication so we will see how receptive she is....

Still Hopeful but there are days I wonder....

Prayers still for all those who are hurting, hang in, be strong