Something strange has happened and of all those folks in my life, I know you will appreciate this story.
If you have been following my thread at all, you will know that I have been working at letting go and accepting that xSO is truly gone. To that end, I been changing some of the pictures of us to other pictures, I cleaned out his portion of the bathroom (his special towels went into the rag bin ) and packing away some of the more sentimental things.
Yesterday, I was going through some cards and found some scratch lottery tickets he had sent me a few months ago on my birthday. (I will not keep you in suspense I did not become a millionaire although that would have been sweet on several levels). Anyway, I don't know if anyone else has a bit of a mystic streak but I said to the universe, if I lose on these three tickets I will never hear from xSO again.
I started to laugh when I won $2. In my journal that night, I wrote that my question was too open ended - could be 30 years. Honestly I did not take it seriously it was just funny. There is no way I should have won anything on the scratch tickets. Not only are the odds against you but I tend to be the unlucky in gambling sort. I would drive MizJ's H crazy.
Guess who texted me today?
I was enjoying a day outside and had turned my phone off so I have not yet replied. I am a little scared to reply. I don't want to lose the ground I have gained. I do not want a reconnection only to hear about how in love he is or how pregnant the GF is or whatever.
Many have said that when the LBS is truly ready to move on is when the MLCer reappears. In my case that has proven true.
I am not delaying a response because it is the DBing thing to do. I am truly wary. I don't want to be hurt or the fish who keeps biting the hook. But it feels very wrong not to respond.
) and packing away some of the more sentimental things. 
