Dawn, I believe everything in life is a test of sorts. And so, we should always try to be our best self.
If my M is over I am content in knowing it is because I say it's over. It's not what H wants, I believe when he says that, but I'm the one who has to look in the mirror and like who I see.
Absolutely ^^^^, my friend.
The affair is not the emotional scar that won't heal.
I am so glad to hear you say that. It would be a terrible injustice for you to carry that around with you the rest of your days.
I am ready to move on, away from him, but am I ready to let go? That seems to be the last step in truly knowing when your done.
You will let go when you are ready. It is a process, Dawn. Not necessary to do it all at once. Nor should you let it drag out indefinitely.
I speak as if there is no hope...I'm protecting myself...I believe there is no hope. I don't feel M, I do feel cared for, protected, but not M to the L of my life, so no H it's not enough for me.
I have to say that I believe there is always hope in life. But if that feeling helps protect you from the hurt right now, then that is what you need to feel.
The thing is this. There is no right way to go about this. We are all so different, our spouses different, our sitches all uniquely ours. And so, we walk this journey in our own way.
I can feel your sadness, Dawn and I am so sorry. You will not always feel like this. I promise you that. And when you are ready, you will let him go. As you said, you will leave the door open a crack and see what happens in the future. For now, just feel what you feel, then let it go and continue on your journey.
