i know- our age. it does make a difference doesn't it? the long long r - it does too. no getting around it.
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I'm sick of having to STFU.
i know- me too. i'm soooo tired of feeling like who i am is "not good enough for him" anymore. f that. f him-
of course- even sayign that doesn't change anything- just my darn annoyment inside about it all. i never ever tried to change him- i resent mightily that now i'm supposed to change into whatever it is he thinks i should be (apparently) -
very probably- i will not. i am me at the end of the day- oh well huh??/ what can a girl be but herself?
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If some stranger can appreciate us, why can't our own Hs, the very people who love them the most in the world????
hey- that's a nice little perker-upper there. i wouldn't mind someone telling me what a swell gal i am. not likely to happen at a school - but oh well. if all else fails i'll get a job as checkout girl in lowes or somethwere with lots and lots of men passing thru- just to keepin touch with the other sex. (whattya think??? got somethingthere??)
oh brother- huh?????
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How DID it get so bad....will it ever get better again? I love my H so much and he feels NOTHING for me. Maybe less than nothing. It's like that nurse I told you about, showing me affection but I feel nothing for him. That is what my H feels for me Nothing. And nothing I can do or say will ever change it. I can just wait and live and hope some day he changes his mind. But why would he? It doesn't make any sense to me today.
i know - mee too and most days. i am washed over by the sheer magnitude and un-ravel-ability of it all. i HATE that the ball is in their court- i HATE that they feel soooo sure of us- i'd say they're acting as they do because they are sooooo sure they have us rite where they want us-
it's sooooo easy to not like something YOU HAVE. IT'S ANOTHER ballgame i think when you don't anymore.
unfortunately - we all know how that one goes. can't actually treaten it til we're ready to make good on the threat-
what a mess- i feel EXACTLY like you- having some wine- not worrying about one damn thing tonite. even h's ennui- if that's what one could/would call it. everyone in universe can go to hell tonite- i'm jsut bein me - and glad of it.
you couldn't pay me enough to be a man- what a mess they all seem to be mostly.
i couldn't even imagine another man "fitting the bill" for me. that is the sad truth- but as i say it- who would ever have envisioned this guy- or even my ex h who was okay apparently- i married him. SOOOO- NEVER SAY NEVER MY DEAR- we just can't know where it "ends" and then where it BEGINS again and where it goes - ta da!!!!
what a masterpeice of bs i can be - but however convoluted- i believe all this junk is ay- like this goofy necklace i'm wearing with the evil eye thing- that the "universe sent me" - it's so jerky it's got to be true.
HTERE JUST HAS TO BE MORE OUT THERE THAN WE CAN EVER FATHOM- THERE ARE THOSEL ITTLE OR BIG UNEXPLAINABLE THINGS- THEY HAPPEN- "HAND OF GOD" -
IDK- I'M GOIN WITH IT- BLAD YOU LAUGH. I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH. IT'S THAT damn e-mail i read about hte mirror she was hanging in her room- what? so she could watch his A$$ jiggle as he humps her??? i guess so- what else would there be to see? i'm askin- andhis butt is okay- but no muscular wwf wrestler - like i'd take looking at "the rock"'s butt anyd ay.
i'm getting gone- hear h heading inside. cripes!!!
love ya- st ay happy and keep laughing- it's all we got.
