Mr. Bond, he keeps mentioning how awkward things will be when I come back, and keeps bringing up this fact. He has mentioned several times that he doesn't feel comfortable around me any longer, and keeps saying we need to separate. Yet, he does nothing to separate. I even told him the other night that while I do not desire the separation, I understand his feelings, and will do what I can to support him. Maybe I shouldn't have said that...although, at this point I'm not completely opposed to a physical separation. I feel like the time I've spent away from him has been constructive and has felt good and not the usual stress. I'm not sure I want to go back to an environment where my H is constantly ignoring me, and when he does say something it's to tell me how uncomfortable he feels. I do miss him a lot, but I miss the person I married, not this guy. I understand I was not perfect myself, but I would say in hindsight I've actually improved overall since we've married in terms of emotional well being. There are things I'm well aware of that I need to work on, but those will take some time to fix. Right now I'm going through a roller coaster of emotions, and can't decide what I want. I go from missing my H terribly, to not giving a s*it. I guess time is really my best friend right now. I don't want to make any rash decisions.
Is supporting a separation a poor choice on my end?
